I guess "nostalgia" has been on my mind. P, 14, and I were in Rockport for a summer trip we take often but this year almost everything was different: the Fudgery is closed, our favorite restaurant didn't have the right food, puttering about the beach doesn't hold quite the same appeal as when she was 6... we were sitting at lunch talking about "the past is a foreign country" and it dawned on her that she was experiencing nostalgia for the first time.
The nostalgia I'm exploring here is not really songs from a time I miss. rather, they exist in a space I can still touch but, having grown, can't fully occupy: a mind nation where all stress and problems can be addressed with an obliterating wall of thrashing drums and huge jagged guitar.
It's been huge for me since the past few months have really been almost constant work stress with very few opportunities for outlet/resolution/relief. plenty of walks where I've thrown this one on and made it "louder than the noise that drowns you out".
I've been chucking tunes here for a few months now. anything that fit the bill of being bombastic, preposterous, provocative, or just general noise pollution. this one is full of:
- huge 90s post-punk guitar walls (deftones / helmet)
- wailin 90s indie (built to spill / ted leo)
- hardcore thumps (fugazi / h2o / minutemen)
- screamin punk bops (descendents / social d / jeff rosenstock)
- big thrashy metal (witch / mastodon / king gizzard / melvins / boris)
- dreamy shoegaze stuff (catherine wheel / winter / drop nineteens / tanukichan)
- one countryesque closer about contemplating arson
- and of course lots lots more things best played loud now and regret later
thanks for listening, mind the fnords